Addiction

Am I really that difficult to be with?

I guess when you put your whole heart and soul into a relationship, you get completely attached to that person.

That’s when every action they do or words they say affects you.

Positive or negative, the feeling will be on an extreme level.

Don’t get me wrong.

I am really happy but with real happiness, there’s always the chance of facing real unhappiness.

Do I make sense?

I guess what I’m trying to say is that I’ve never felt so intensely for a person that when something goes wrong, I fall into these deep bouts of depression.

It’s bad.

Really bad.

‘Cause, I tend to lose myself.

Maybe I am losing myself.

I am losing it.

And I wouldn’t be surprised if I don’t control my feelings, I will lose him in the end.

This is not how love is supposed to be.