The dreaming machine
10 Nov 2008 1 Comment
in Uncategorized Tags: down, Inspiration, life, poem
You see zigzag through me
I don’t hate it better.
I’m thinking of you.
But not so fondly.
When we meet at R4, we shall reunite permanently.
Until then, the moon will be in retrograde.
P.S. Music has been missing in my life.
What a tragedy.
Now is the time to be inspired.
I know you’re not ready for this.
You’ll never be.
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18 Oct 2008 Leave a Comment
in Uncategorized Tags: conflict, down, life, trouble
I don’t feel good about this. At all.
I know its the “right” thing to do.
I deserve this.
And so does he.
I hope I won’t regret this for life.
I hope everything will fall into place.
We deserve happiness. Especially him.
I’ll always be your’s.
Your ming a ling.
Reaching there
30 Apr 2008 Leave a Comment
in Uncategorized Tags: conflict, down, temptation
Us fighting constantly.
Everyday, it scares me.
It’s confusing and I change my mind a thousand million times.
How I did not know the dynamic changed so long ago astounds me.
Before it happened.
Before she happened.
Now only bitterness charges up my heart.
This path only leads to the putrid side of love.
I am afraid.
It can only go uphill.
Smoking halogen
02 Mar 2008 1 Comment
in Uncategorized Tags: conflict, down, thoughts, trouble
I wonder when my love will fade and I wonder when my heart will grow cold.
Give it up to me
28 Jan 2008 Leave a Comment
in Uncategorized Tags: conflict, down
I didn’t give a reason.
I don’t want an apology.
I don’t need facades to make me happy.
Pray tell me, how am I suppose to feel as your lover.
As your friend.
As a human.
Please shut me out.
For your sake.
Lost in transformation
28 Jan 2008 Leave a Comment
in Uncategorized Tags: down, thoughts
I’ve said it.
There was no reply.
No reaction to my confession.
Nothing feels worse than rejection.
I had a vision of you repulsing at my touch.
I didn’t understand you.
I didn’t respect you enough.
I’m intolerable material.
Why are you still here?
Why?
